So as we all know, heartbreak sucks. It really sucks. What feels as if it could last forever. This heart wrenching, stomach churning, mind boggling time period that seems as if it consumes your whole life. A time period that feels like forever. BUT, there comes a time people..there comes a time where the sobbing ends. Where you begin to get a glimpse of the bigger picture. Your skin begins to feel the warmth from the light at the end of the tunnel. And, if you’re not there yet, my love. Your epiphany is yet to come.
She failed to realize the biggest piece to the puzzle of my perplexed lifestyle wasn’t the man she was hoping to fall madly in love with. The missing piece was me. The end to all the tears and heartache was, me. She was the solution. Trifecta of sorts. She was the only one who could put an end to such a disastrous period of my life. The girl who had once lost herself amongst the pleasure and service of others had finally set down her foot. She withdrew herself from the negative and began to fill up with positivity. She was astonished, baffled at the fact that she was once this desperate miserable person. Little did she know, she was the fiercest of them all. The one girl who stood up for herself at one point became the smallest person of all. Whose tears would be wiped away night after night. When all she thought about was what she did wrong. When in fact, nothing was her fault. Her emotions were not her fault and most of all to want to be loved and to love, was not her fault. The universe wasn’t ready. It wasn’t able to handle the amount of love she was about to bring. So, what did it do? What life does best. A nice reality check to the face. A heartbreak, a heart throbbing late-night sobbing typical heartbreak. What seemed to be never ending soon came to an end. She proved herself wrong, she showed what it took to be confident. How picking up the shattered pieces she had left and making the most beautiful architectural piece that is her life. Though it is still under construction, the foundation is solid. She’s been through the worst of it. She’s accepted what has happened. She has forgave, she has understood, she has accepted. Like every woman is meant to do. But she has not forgotten. Because she will never forget the reason for it all. The scars that have finally started to heal. The bruises that have begun to fade. The stitches on her heart that still rip open. This is her drive. To never be defeated by one person. To never let anyone control your emotions. And, when the time is right. No, when you least expect it. The unexpected will happen. We all love a good mystery and she’s a walking novel. A quirky comedy, dark suspense, heart wrenching romance, and a kick ass action novel all in one. She treads with hope that someday the universe will be ready to release the greatest drug anyone could ever have.
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